prayer of a lost soul

prayer of a lost soul
in the name of the... amen. bless oh... my family.. guide them that they may continue to follow your will and remain under your care and undying love.. give them the strength to surpass all the trials that you have prepared for them.. bless them with good health and a good life.. my friends.. give them your wisdom in dealing with all their struggles.. shower them with your blessings as they remain faithful in your words by enlightening lost souls like me.. may they find enough courage to fight for their causes, whatever that may be.. and.. punish me... for everything i have done wrong.. burn me in the flames of hell and crush my selfish dreams.. i am a sinner.. unworthy of your graces.. let your will be done.. i love you.. ...amen. ______________________________________________________________________________________

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

hypothetical Q

just a hypothetical question:

when you are in a bar, with this two great great man obviously asking to get laid (and i mean only SEX, nothing more), who would you prefer.. the guy whom you just met few hours ago or the guy whom you have known for quite sometime but you're trying to hide from coz he have this "crazy-little-thing-called-love" for you?

just asking! lol

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

contentment

when you decide to choose an option so different from what you have been used to, you always end up thrashing something.. practicality wise, it has never been an ideal, but emotionally, despite all the struggles, all those pain and the always empty pocket, you feel something far more greater than happiness...





Saturday, February 26, 2011



Lyrics | Oliver James - Greatest Story Ever Told lyrics

page one



you might wonder that after the love letter post, here i am again blogging on a different persona. the love letter was not really mailed.. it was just my way of rekindling the love that has slowly been dying.. but it never worked. rather, it made me realize one thing: i've fallen out of love with him.

then, another story started.. another promising journey that is making me alive again. i used to put high hopes on everything that i do before but it just frustrates me at one point or another.. i've learned my lesson now. i realized that it's better to live each day as the same passes. no more hopes. no more promises. zero plans. some of my peers even think that it's the life of a coward that im into right now. il settle for it. i am the master of my fate. i would like to believe that im leaving something great for something grand.. not financially but emotionally.

this is page one.




Tuesday, December 7, 2010

love letter


Love,

It’s been a while, yet nothing has really changed a bit. The last six years I’ve been with you has been the greatest thing that ever happened to me. You never left my side since day one. You were once a dream and I, a piece-o-shit waiting for his disposal. It was you who believed and trusted me when no one even dared. It was also you who had the courage to slap my face when I really needed one. You were my hero in a story unlikely of a fairy tale, but a fairy tale nonetheless. There was no damsel in distress but only a mighty prince but it was me who needed the saving. If all these, from the moment we met, will turn out to be a mistake, then destiny would have to think of everything there is to make me understand... Because surely, I will not allow anyone or anything take away the only thing that makes me want to wake up every morning... the only person I love.
I love you..

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

:-(

in a matter of days, the luxury that i am enjoying right now is about to end again.. the late morning wake-ups will soon be history and the "seemingly-a-lifetime-of-stress" will ruin my goody life again..

im not yet prepared for the battle that awaits.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

downfall..


with a hundred and some coins left in my pocket, i am literally empty. and this one calls, again, for some pondering.. funny how this times can motivate me to think and write stuffs such as this. this is what others say that during those times when we are happy and satisfied, we tend to isolate and immerse ourselves into enjoying the moment in full satisfaction.. we tend to taste every last happy feeling that we can have and completely disregard those things that can completely ruin it.. this really makes sense and i wont be opposing that..

my second year in law school has been a helluva ride! there were some great moments but there were also moments when i almost thought of giving up.. and this is no metaphor. there were times when i thought that my efforts were paying off.. happy times when i felt being recognized.. but there were also those times when the recognition i'm getting is not the kind of recognition that i'm expecting.. im no saint. i admit that.. seems that there are some things which we think were innocently harmless would, in the long run, be 0ne wrong move towards our downfall.

needless to say, i'm a bit nervous on what's gonna happen this year.. im still positive though. i need more ammunition.. i can no longer risk my chance into finishing my personal goal. i need this more than anything. im preparing for the worst and praying for some miracles.. big word? let it be! im in need of that and a lot more!

pray for me. :-)