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haizt! im bored.

a new day..

as been repeatedly said, there shall always be sunshine after the rain.. although technically, the rain hasnt stopped yet and typhoon pepeng seemed to like passing the philippines, this time i must say, i am feeling better.

tragedies happen. that's part of our existence. the underlying principle that can make us strong lies from this.. i am not saying that we should be happy everytime these tragedies came but it's always so rewarding to, from time to time, focus on the brighter side. we have witnessed so much loss when "ondoy" visited us, but we have also seen a lot of bravery and courage.. generousity and heroism.

in times like this, we always find ways to reconstruct and reconfigure the broken pieces.. at times when you feel like you are being left out, there will always be a magical helping hand that will pull you out from the oblivion.. and more often than not, the person you never expected to be there will be the person whom you will be indebted for the rest of your life..

i know this post may not seem to be ME, as i have always been very vocal of my pessimism. let me be.. i am wrecked by what had happened but i am also touched by the things that i have been witnessing for the past days. i guess, we all have the right to be emotional (in a positive way) from time to time..

hope. let's not allow destiny to take this away from our hands.. out of our hearts.. out of our lives.. completely.

gud day fellahs!

in pain..

im in pain again.. i guess pain and me will never be separated anymore..

last night, i immediately went home after a mental torture from law school. i was so tired that i really wanted a rest as early as possible.. when i reached home, i ate my dinner as i watched a local program in the TV.. before i was able to finish my dinner, my partner went home with some groceries.. maybe because i was damn tired that night that i subconsciously ignored his presence.. before i knew it, he told me in a very crispy tone:

"ANG KAPAL NG MUKHA MO!..."

now i know how painful this phrase can be.. never imagined that i will be hearing this line uttered for me.. i wanted to fight back but i know it would do me no good.. instead, i turned off my laptop, went to the balcony and lighted a cigarette.. i stayed there for hours, trying to get some comfort from the cold breeze..

im sorry if i am tired! im sorry if i wasnt able to fix your stuffs! im sorry if im such a loser! im sorry if i cant be the perfect partner that i can be! im sorry, ok?! sigh

reminiscing..

ive been out lately.. looking for some setbacks and friends that may accompany me in my boring hours..

i admit, im very sensitive in my dealings with my friends.. but i always end up loving them more.. as they say, the more you put emotions and deal with them like normal people should do and feel, there will always be positive results.. let them know your angry and let them know you feel being left out.. of course, at first, there will be deafening silence.. sooner or later you'll see..

im missing lots of friends right now.. some in bicol, some in manila, others in cebu.. how i wish i still have the luxury of time to travel and visit them once in a while.. but i dont. and that what makes it worst.

just hours ago, i had a conversation with one of my closest friend-officemate in cathay pacific. this is where i used to work before, as a passenger service agent. God! i miss that job! after i left cebu in 2007 and settled here in bcd to pursue law school, i visited them only ONCE! and that "once" ended up in a matter of 10 hours!

now let me talk about night hunter.. i think its about time that i increase the number of casts here.. lol

another admission, i was not the best agent in CX before, it was, night hunter.. a graduate of a catholic school.. an achiever in his own right. he had some training with an airline when we trained for cathay pacific so he was literally on top of the class.. i do not belong to the bottom line though.. we would always be in the same team.. when problems came, we would always rush to him for an explanation, and with his magical clicks, viola! solved!

i have been an admirer ever since, but as what i have said in my previous posts, i am so cautious with my actuations, so he doesnt have any idea.. maybe by now, there will be no more secrecy on that one! lol peace night hunter!

great monday fellahs!

laftym..

lemme give you another ice breaker..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVxrb4248W4

grace under pressure..

i dont know if i can handle the things i have voluntarily accepted, in line with my academic schedules.. for now, i can breath from the pressures of the midterm exams but the sigh is not yet a relief.. it's refreshingly mind-freeing effect is somehow hangin' and inchoate.

i was supposed to digest a moot court problem of Prosecutor v. Wiseman but needless to say, its undone.. unfinished, i should say.. it's facts was so boring that i felt i was reading a history book! damn! i hate history subjects! sorry for those history lovers who gets a lot of satisfaction reading the dates and events of the past. its a personal analysis.. its sooo downright boring on my part.

so now, i would want to challenge myself.

I WONT BE HAVING MY REST TONIGHT UNLESS I'M FINISHED WITH MY CASE BRIEF.

why? why not!

booze

september 2. its a personally declared holiday every year, as this day happen to be the birth of an asshole, me! lol but sine we still have a midterm exam in criminal procedures, i have to attend to my academic schedules first.. after another tiring and excruciating day, it's time to partee!

we spent the whole night in cafe breizh. started @ 9pm and we ended @ 4 am. as i write, i am still drunk.. lol. thanks for my nurse bestfriend who gave me some meds to somehow lessen my hangover! at any rate, I AM HAPPY..

to all those who came to celebrate with me, thanks..

love y'all!