think again..

i consumed my morning texting my bestfriend's mom and placing calls to my family in the province to check if everything is ok.. so far, there is nothing much to worry about.. my mom is under maintenance medications for her slight heart enlargement.. she's doing perfectly fine though.. thank god!

now, im alone again.. sipping a cup of black coffee, smoking the last cigars that i havent consumed last night while taking glances in my criminal law book from time to time.. though im not feeling the usual me, im managing to act normal..

lately, ive been weighing the pros and cons of not continuing law school.. maybe its because my friends are thinking the same thing.. im a bit afraid that should they decide to stop, i will again be searching for trustees to share personal problems with as well as insights on some academic matters.. i dont want to entertain the thought so much since law school is my last setback.. apart from the promises i have given to my family.. but the thought still lingers..

ive been alone for the last four to five years of my life.. and by alone i mean that during those times, i have never exposed the real me to anybody.. even to the friends i met along the way.. i never wanted to be on such a state for the second time.. now that i have finally found some friends who have been amazingly respectful and understanding about my shames and imperfections, i cant afford to loose them anymore.. i have lost a lot of treasures already.. enough!

think again.. please..