walk away..

love is, and will always be, full of ambiguity. it's not a thing or an emotion or a relationship that is boxed and patterned to follow a single path and direction. every bit of the letter, from the moment one tried to define or even spell it, creates an additional path jumbled with the existing conventional ones..

we often think that love is something we should not suppress. i once was a fan to that. now, im inclined to believe the other way.

this is not to say that what i have been relying into for the last two decades of my life was a complete waste. something in me, would like to admit that i am still open for reconsideration. but as of now, i am dealing with it differently.. and testimonies of some friends somehow made me feel i am doing the right thing.. as they say, anything extraordinary is a waste of time.

we have heard stories of people, who from being friends or bestfriends have managed to level up. and by level up i mean clothing them a different personality -- this time not as friends but as lovers. this scenario is not novel anymore.. but i opt not to take my chance. not because i fear rejection but because of equity. id rather walk away from the friendship than to let myself drown in love that can never be possibly mine.. id rather lose him than to lose track of my being.. id rather cut the crap than be a crap!