the party and the parting..

the party was fun when it started but it ended with a teary-eyed me as i rode the taxi on my way home..

we had dinner in entings.. had some sea foods, followed by a bottle of beer.. thanks, margaha for such a delicious treat.. also in the resto were the reigning queens of the ms. earth 2009 who happen to be from this province.

after dinner we transferred in tropics bar to spend the rest of the night.. after buckets and buckets of beer, we were all drunk.. but not to the point of complete intoxication.. we still have our sanity with us.. we decided to drop by mr donut for a cup of coffee.. time check: 2:00am.

twas this time when the twist of this wonderful evening happened.. i cant elaborate on it though.. private matter.. just want to stress something out for all of you DUMBSHITS, who cant be man enough to take care of your girlfriends!

a man does not leave his girlfriend crying in a public place, worst, in a gasoline station! what kind of man would do that? the fact that ur into a fight is never an excuse! even the fact that your girl wanted you to go away can never justify you leaving her there! i may be gay but i know when and where to act manly! this is so elementary!

sorry bro but this time i cannot tolerate your acts! you never heard anything from us when you came.. we respected your privacy and welcomed you wholeheartedly for our friend. you even had our support.. you have your problems and we let it pass.. you just dont know how that felt.. last night, you prove us wrong! wrong for trying to help you with our friend.. your not worth our sympathy now.. you had your chance..

to my dear friend, wipe your tears away. he's not worth it! dont give him the privilege of seeing you in agony.. rather, make him feel that he just lost one precious gem.. smile.. move on..

psst!..

im back.. i wasnt able to post anything for two days.. not much controversy to write about.. for that im sorry.. yeah, controversies makes me wanna!! hahaha..

again, we have no classes in criminal law today.. dont know when this crilaw torture would end.. we havent finished the revised penal code yet and the enrollment for the next school year is already ongoing.. waaah! dont even know if we are to be greatful for the fact that our professor is trying to finish the course even its a bit off track and way beyond schedule or if we are to condemn him for not giving us a summer break!

we're off to party tonight.. dont know where but we will.. for the record, i will be breaking some rules tonight.. i will party without the knowledge and consent of my partner.. it has become my attitude and a personal unwritten rule to inform my partner of my whereabouts.. anyway, it's just my classmates im going with.. i want to see what's gonna happen next.. il be preparing myself for the 3rd world war when i get home..

just a while ago, rakistah and i had coffee in vienna kafeebar.. talking about his ever famous super j! that guy never fails to amaze me.. he's just sooooooo out-of-this-world! i even told my friends that i would want to have him as my personal tutor in matters of love and friendship! hahaha.. @#^@&$ *@%@&%^@%@&) ^%#@)&+_)*$*&! you know what that means? its a martian statement which means "idol!" hahaha..

ok ok.. i'll cut it now.. i might say inappropriate things should i continue.. dont want to end this blog with a lawsuit! hahaha.. gud day fellahz!

pissed off..

whats wrong with you people?!

before this post, i chatted with some old friends in the net and i received a lot of conference invitations.. please don't get hurt if people refuses to accept your invitations especially if the person your trying to invite is on a serious chat with friends! i dont intend to make an article out of this but im just pissed off with the way other people react! there is this silly person who had been sending me mean messages just for the sole reason that i declined!

as much as i dont want to have online enemies here.. im into the process of listing them ol in my drafts.. to you, "most excellent sir", fuck yourself off!

journal 5-22-09 (pm)..

after my temporary confinement in my bedroom doing nothing but chat, surf, and watch dvds, i went downstairs where the office of my partner is located.. his agents are done with their reports and are now enjoying their spare time tasting the free samples of the new alcoholic beverages of their sister company.. and so i volted in! i did not really joined them.. i picked 4 bottles before i went upstairs.. two coors light beers and two bottles of tanduay ice.. tried tanduay ice first, but since im not used to beverages other than beer, i was easily drowned by the spirit of drunkeness.. twas good.. but its not my forte..

after some minutes, the headache and the spinning was gone.. time check: 8:30pm. we went to the cinema to watch star trek.. ive seen it already but i wanted to see it again on the big screen.. it's still more exciting to watch in the moviehouses than watch it even in the home theater.. before the clock striked midnight, we were home..

im goin out today.. 1 day of confinement is enough.. cant go on a second one..

time out..

for a change, i almost tied my feet just to spend the whole day in my room.. no smoke and caffeine for today.. just me and my shih (jasper) and my laptop and some dvd's.. my eyes are tired.. been staring at my laptop's monitor and the lcd screen since 6am.. my room is adorned with empty wrappers of chips and curls.. and my shih is really loving it! he enjoys playing with them! i need a time out.. bye for now..

update..

after spending some moments alone yesterday, rakistah invited me for a drink.. after 3 bottles, elyang came to join us and we transferred to the music box just beside genesis.. ordered another round as we alternately took our turns singing.. no excuses this time.. either you sing what's in the screen or you choose your type of song.. margaha came with another round of beer and some pork and chicken barbeque.. im drunk, i admit (and so with rakistah) but the joy of the moment kept us kickin'! the group is slowly reuniting now.. for that, im happy.. surprisingly, my partner and i didnt have a verbal altercation when he fetched me from the music box.. we dropped by in the mall for some groceries and had the best sleep so far..

just hours ago, i went to my bestfriend's house.. his granny was brought to the hospital for check-up.. she's been ill for two days now.. good thing there were no complications..

somebody asked me this morning if i am into satanism in this blog.. am i? a RESOUNDING NO! its just that i can see myself in the picture.. an ultimate sinner who's been praying for forgiveness to bro.. in a way, it may be damn negative and a hell of an exaggeration.. but even the figures of speech have the "hyperbole", right? in order to maximize the impact of the statement for the readers to easily picture out..

that's all for now fellahz.. my friends are waiting for me outside.. mwah mwah mwah!!

think again..

i consumed my morning texting my bestfriend's mom and placing calls to my family in the province to check if everything is ok.. so far, there is nothing much to worry about.. my mom is under maintenance medications for her slight heart enlargement.. she's doing perfectly fine though.. thank god!

now, im alone again.. sipping a cup of black coffee, smoking the last cigars that i havent consumed last night while taking glances in my criminal law book from time to time.. though im not feeling the usual me, im managing to act normal..

lately, ive been weighing the pros and cons of not continuing law school.. maybe its because my friends are thinking the same thing.. im a bit afraid that should they decide to stop, i will again be searching for trustees to share personal problems with as well as insights on some academic matters.. i dont want to entertain the thought so much since law school is my last setback.. apart from the promises i have given to my family.. but the thought still lingers..

ive been alone for the last four to five years of my life.. and by alone i mean that during those times, i have never exposed the real me to anybody.. even to the friends i met along the way.. i never wanted to be on such a state for the second time.. now that i have finally found some friends who have been amazingly respectful and understanding about my shames and imperfections, i cant afford to loose them anymore.. i have lost a lot of treasures already.. enough!

think again.. please..