prayer of a lost soul

prayer of a lost soul
in the name of the... amen. bless oh... my family.. guide them that they may continue to follow your will and remain under your care and undying love.. give them the strength to surpass all the trials that you have prepared for them.. bless them with good health and a good life.. my friends.. give them your wisdom in dealing with all their struggles.. shower them with your blessings as they remain faithful in your words by enlightening lost souls like me.. may they find enough courage to fight for their causes, whatever that may be.. and.. punish me... for everything i have done wrong.. burn me in the flames of hell and crush my selfish dreams.. i am a sinner.. unworthy of your graces.. let your will be done.. i love you.. ...amen. ______________________________________________________________________________________

Friday, August 14, 2009

the worst curse scenario..


i have always been a fan of exaggeration and since there are no rules on grammar and sentence construction here in my freedom wall, i would like to qualify the word, in application to my attitude, being an oversensitive jackass!

of course, in line with such a statement, i would want to narrate my thoughts.. although this is not to say that this should be taken as a definite fact, please reconsider..

being in law school demands a huge amount of effort, time and analysis.. i guess this may explain it.. i sometimes tend to overly criticize just about anything.. from the words being uttered.. the messages being sent.. the arguments being presented.. and the acts done including the antecedent circumstances and the subsequent events thereafter..

similarly, i am a bit pessimist myself.. as ive said in some of my posts, im hopeful but never hoping.. in any problem that i have encountered i always try to deal with it negatively.. i know i may sound judgmental in a way but i have always loved the feeling of complete honesty that goes with negativity.. lemme put it this way, if i dont react negatively, i wont be able to get what i wanted as a reply.. from the words of logan, i dont want to be clouded by the beauty of endearing words. id rather be in the worst case scenario. the crispiness of the curses.. the sincerity in anger.. that's what i wanted to hear!

still puzzled? me too! lol


7 comments:

  1. You want honesty, name the place and the time. I'll tell everything...

    Thanks... ;-)

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  2. You must be best in your negativity. That's what I see. LOve this post!

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  3. My apologies for being so negative. :)

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  4. logan,

    first of all, this post is basically a "first-person" write up. i dont intend to hurt any other's feelings nor puzzle anybody into thinking this post relate to him or her..

    as ive said, i am pessimistic.. so, if, in one way or another, you have thought that this post is for you, i am sorry. you are wrong. there's no need to apologize.

    this is a personal struggle.. i want to keep it compartmentalized that way.

    maybe you are also into the same scenario as i am and i respect that.. i guess your into the same thinking that i am, coz evidently, correct me if im wrong, we both are "negatives"..

    surprisingly, i would want to toast for that!

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  5. the rationale presented is self serving and i respect that. its a personal preference. but i would like to pose a question.. how would you handle the intricacies of the different issues that confront you if your focus is always on the negativity? there seem to be an imbalance.....no offense meant....tsk..tsk..tsk.. always be a first-rate version of yourself instead of a second-rate version of someone else...you are unique... there has never been a person like you, nor will there ever be another just like you. resist the temptation to look negatively at yourself and focus on what you think are your shortcomings —weaknesses and inabilities, a less-than-perfect body or personality or whatever.....especially those who won in genetic lottery....hehehehehe....what is perfection, after all? it is fulfilling the purpose for which you were created, which is to love and be loved. So many people loves you. Need I enumerate them? They love you just the way you are. I rest my case. Peace and I remain.

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  6. joemen,

    "how would you handle the intricacies of the different issues that confront you if your focus is always on the negativity? there seem to be an imbalance....."

    as you've said, we all are unique.. and unique as we are, we all have our own ways of handling things.. for a certain person a conventional approach may be efficient, but its not a guarantee that it will be as efficient for other individual. as for me, i resort to such an approach.. i guess this is not debatable.. rule on subjectivity.. again! hahaha

    id rather let you kick my ass than to let you pinch me.. id rather be seriously injured to make me feel the gravity of your pains than to suffer the slightest damage and not know it..

    at any rate, thanks, as always..

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  7. Let's drink to that, for being "negatives" ... lol :)

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