on love and friendship..

WE CANNOT FORCE OURSELVES TO BE HAPPY.

this is what i have learned yesterday. sometimes, our body feels what the rest of the day is gonna be like or how our day will gonna end like.

our class started @ 530pm. fiscal was on time. after the reports, we were supposed to have a long quiz, but she changed her mind. no more final exams!

should be fun right?

so, we went to the park and our nbi agent comrade treated us a round of beer and an hour at the music box!

again, should be fun right??

it was supposed to be.. but it wasn't.. we tried singing danceable songs to make the room a bit lively but it didn't worked. maybe it has something to do with the problem that my other friends are facing right now. we have decided not to talk about it anymore and since it basically involves the two of them alone, we'll let them do the ironing.. this should and could not affect, in any manner, the friendship that we all treasure.. subjective, i know. im hopeful.

...it is not a question of our differences.. not even with our mistakes, but rather with our principles that we can finally resolve and come up.. hopefully, with the most taken for granted word.. peace! i really cant remember where in hell have i memorized this line or from what book or film or author that i come to type those statement.. but its not mine, surely.. lol

after about 30mins in the music box, i left. went to a local mall to meet my partner.. went to the parking area to leave my things inside his car.. we bought medicines for his maintenance and vitamins and the twilight book series..

we went home at about 9pm and while inside the car, him driving, he began complaining.. that i don't appreciate everything he does.. that he cannot feel that i care for him.. that he cannot feel anything from me.. even a consolation at all! that i should cater not only my friends' needs but also his'! that, i am.. aaaaahhh! enough!

i reasoned out. but when he began raising his voice, i stopped. closed my eyes and listened to every word he uttered.. i cried silently.. my tears were overflowing. but t'was alright. used to those words..

we're home. silence.